Monday, April 11, 2016

Dazed, confused, and narcoleptic

Recently I've veered away from discussion of my own internal processes towards a synopsis of my actions and pursuit of new relationships. And although I will absolutely keep you all updated on Trivia night, boardgames, mushroom cultivation, dating, etc., I want to take a moment to reflect on and hate some of the larger impacts this whole endeavor is having on my person.

Pros: I've had the opportunity to connect more with beloved friends. I've also had the chance to focus on celebrating and learning me, delving more deeply into my passions and interests. It turns out that having 3 evenings each week to dedicate to myself is allowing me  lot of growth, reflection, questioning, and general health.

Cons: I've developed a tremor, depression, significant anxiety, have started sleepwalking, and engaging in what my GP describes as "narcolepsy with automatic behavior." That's fun. Or not.

Let me try to explain by way of example.

As you all know by now, The Socialist moved to her own side of the house several months ago - we're now living truly as housemates and coparents. When Little Smye asked her if we're married, the answer was 'no.'

Anyway, one night about a month ago, The Socialist was getting home late from a hospice choir she sings in and heard strange sounds coming from the bathroom. She knocked - no answer. She knocked again and called to me "Smye, are you alright in there?" No answer.

Concerned, she opened the door to find me standing on the bathroom counter. Urinating. Into the bathrub. Across the walk way.

"Um, Smye. What are you doing?"

*Mumble mumble mumble*

"No really, Smye, I'm sure there's a reason, why are you peeing in the tub?"

"I've been elected to City Council. This is tradition good sir. I'm merely following in the footsteps of my forebears."

"What?"
"Sir, you mustn't interfere. This is a rite of passage into city government."

...

I have no recollection of this whatsoever. But she's filmed other weird instances of late-night odd behavior. And to those asking - nope. No sleeping pills, alcohol, or other mind altering substances were involved. Just stress, trauma, and sleep deprivation coupled with narcolepsy. Good times.

On the bright side, The Socialist was kind enough to guide me back to bed and gently inform me the next morning of my curious behavior. On the brighter side, even when sleepwalking I apparently have good aim and so had very little mess to clean up the next day.

On the brightest side - modern medicine is amazing and my GP and I are pursuing ways to correct my hynogogic arrests while falling asleep that lead to this erratic fugue-like state.

More to come...

Friday, April 1, 2016

Updates 2.0

The Actress is back. She's a delightful human who I thoroughly enjoy spending time with. She's also committed (for now) to at least 2 years without a romance and it's utterly delightful to have no pressure from her as well, she's an excellent human, but I'd not want to pursue further at this point - if forced to pick a desert-island companion today, yep, she'd be in the running... but I'm very grateful for her current role and not remotely eager to change that. It's lovely to have another friend in my life.

Lastly, tomorrow The Gourmand (my AllRecipes friend) and I will be making hundreds of sushi (maki, nigiri, gunkan, and sashimi) in a dry run of a party she's catering and some recipes I'll be submitting to AR. Should be a good time.

Update 4/3/16: A few have asked about my long term goals with The Actress, suggesting that either I ought to actively pursue romance and quit 'beating around the bush' or else 'stay the hell away.' Rather than answering to each email as it comes, I thought I'd just answer here. So, what are my long term goals with The Actress? I have none, other than to keep her influence in my life as someone I value and respect. Am I pursuing or even hoping for romance? Nope. Am I dead set against it? Nope. And for now, that's plenty.